Dear Miss Chelsey Rae..

I miss you. A LOT! I think about you all the time. It hurts me to know that I will never see my best friend again. Everybody always tells me that you’re in a better place and that you’re pain free. My argument is that it never had to happen to you. Any of it! You didn’t need to go through 2 open heart surgeries. And you most definitely did not need to go through cancer and chemo. You were such an amazing person and everybody saw that! Your smile was contagious. Your spirit was so bright! Why did any of this have to happen to you? You didn’t deserve any of it. I often think about you and cry because I miss you so much! And sometimes I think about you and start laughing. Thinking about how clutzy you were. You could be walking and trip over nothing. :) You were such an awesome person and I can’t help but think about my best friend. When I was laying in bed one day, I saw a picture of us when we were little. I thought to myself, “Wow, I haven’t seen Chelsey in a while. We should get together with all of our old friends sometime!” And then I realized that it was true, I haven’t seen you in a while. Because you’re dead. And I will never get to go out to lunch with you, hang out and watch movies with you or even go to a Spark’s game with you.. ever again. I cry every time I think about it because you didn’t deserve to have any pain. Or go through what you did. You deserve to be the happy girl who is always smiling and playing sports! Everybody tells me that you are with God thinking that will help me. But I don’t believe in God. I do believe in heaven though. And I know you are up there with Grandma Ebert playing basketball together! I hope you are happy up there. And I hope that you watch over all of us. When we were little and hung out all the time, I never would have thought that you wouldn’t be here to celebrate you’re 18th birthday or even your 16th. And who would have thought that Christina would be the only one to go to Senior Prom? We always knew that it would be all 3 of us in our fancy dresses and our big limo. But atleast you got to go once and had a great time! But I just want you to know that I miss you Stebert. Each and every day I think about you and how much you have impacted all of these people with just your smile, your spirit, and your sweet soul. Also, I have been a lot more of a clutz the last couple years. And I have been starting to like pink again after so long. I used to hate pink but if you could see how much pink is in my room, you would be so happy. I think you had a little something to do with that.. anyway.. Thanks for being my best friend. And thanks for being you. I miss you Chels!! <3 <3