The 3 letter word. J-O-B.

I might have a possible job. Not sure if I'm ready for one yet but we will see.
My mom set up an internship for someone at Record Journal and asked me if I wanted to do it. So I said yes. I would love to do stuff like that because I love to write! I'm starting next week with 2 days a week. Tues and Thurs. I gotta see if I like it and maybe work up to more days. Hope it doesn't bring my stress back but you never know. I'm a perfectionist and I don't wanna let people down. So together its pretty stressful. So hopefully it doesn't start up. But I'm excited! This could be a good thing for me.
Also, I was thinking about starting my own party planning business. I love to do that also and I'm good at it! But can't start that up now. And I would also love to do something in a bakery. That would be fun.
But this internship at Record Journal could turn into a job. Also, I'm professional which is a plus. And I love to write and design things.
2 favorite activities: Scrapbooking and Writing Stories.
Perfect! :)

Wish me luck! :)

I love my new friends! :)

Well this blog is about exactly what the title says. I do love my new friends. I'm starting my life over. And its weird to have people actually like me and support me. I'm not used to that. I'm used to everybody hating me even if it is in my mind. My mind is a powerful thing! But I have 2 new friends.

Elizabeth- She is awesome! We have so much in common and she understands things that other people don't. I really am grateful that she is my friend. I love her company and we have some good talks! :)

Emily- She is so kind and it's fun to try new adventures together! We have good talks as well. :)

Both of my new friends are wonderful people! They are beautiful inside and out. I hope they know that I really appreciate them! :)

<3

Check out these deals!

Well on facebook I found this blog called Thrifty Northwest Mom. It's this lady that tells you about all the deals going on around Washington. She lives in Tacoma and things work all the way down there and up here! Also, there are lots of freebies to sign up for online! And I LOVE free stuff! Also, I learned about some good deals on the magazine called "Family Fun". Me and my mom love that magazine! Lots of cute ideas! So I ordered a years subscription for like $8. It's pretty sweet to say the least. And I love free stuff and all kinds of deals!
So check out her blog, become a fan on facebook or subscribe by email. I did all 3! Can't miss any good deals! Also, Dairy Queen is having a deal that if you buy 1 blizzard, get 1 for like 25 or 50 cents. Its for their 25th anniversary I think. So probably 25 cents.. anyway.. her website is-

Www.ThriftyNorthWestMom.com

**I usually don't promote people but everybody loves deals! :) **

Haven't blogged for a while..

So I know that I haven't updated my blog lately...
It's not because I'm having so much fun, It's because I am sooo tired. But I found wifi and decided to upload all my "journal" entries. But I just wanted to say thank you to everybody who reads my blog!

Thank You Dad!
Thank You Elizabeth!
Thank you Sue!
And thanks to whoever my other follower is!!
I appreciate all of you! :)

Dear Miss Chelsey Rae..

I miss you. A LOT! I think about you all the time. It hurts me to know that I will never see my best friend again. Everybody always tells me that you’re in a better place and that you’re pain free. My argument is that it never had to happen to you. Any of it! You didn’t need to go through 2 open heart surgeries. And you most definitely did not need to go through cancer and chemo. You were such an amazing person and everybody saw that! Your smile was contagious. Your spirit was so bright! Why did any of this have to happen to you? You didn’t deserve any of it. I often think about you and cry because I miss you so much! And sometimes I think about you and start laughing. Thinking about how clutzy you were. You could be walking and trip over nothing. :) You were such an awesome person and I can’t help but think about my best friend. When I was laying in bed one day, I saw a picture of us when we were little. I thought to myself, “Wow, I haven’t seen Chelsey in a while. We should get together with all of our old friends sometime!” And then I realized that it was true, I haven’t seen you in a while. Because you’re dead. And I will never get to go out to lunch with you, hang out and watch movies with you or even go to a Spark’s game with you.. ever again. I cry every time I think about it because you didn’t deserve to have any pain. Or go through what you did. You deserve to be the happy girl who is always smiling and playing sports! Everybody tells me that you are with God thinking that will help me. But I don’t believe in God. I do believe in heaven though. And I know you are up there with Grandma Ebert playing basketball together! I hope you are happy up there. And I hope that you watch over all of us. When we were little and hung out all the time, I never would have thought that you wouldn’t be here to celebrate you’re 18th birthday or even your 16th. And who would have thought that Christina would be the only one to go to Senior Prom? We always knew that it would be all 3 of us in our fancy dresses and our big limo. But atleast you got to go once and had a great time! But I just want you to know that I miss you Stebert. Each and every day I think about you and how much you have impacted all of these people with just your smile, your spirit, and your sweet soul. Also, I have been a lot more of a clutz the last couple years. And I have been starting to like pink again after so long. I used to hate pink but if you could see how much pink is in my room, you would be so happy. I think you had a little something to do with that.. anyway.. Thanks for being my best friend. And thanks for being you. I miss you Chels!! <3 <3

As we ride along this road..

It’s been an interesting trip this far to say the least. We’ve had our ups and downs. My grandma has been annoying me sooo much. I knew that this trip would be bad but I never thought we would learn so much about each other(not in a good way).But one good thing is that I never knew that my grandpa had such a great sense of humor! He doesn’t talk that often because he can’t hear very well. So he doesn’t join in on the conversation all the time. But when you have been married to my grandma for 60 years, I would have selective hearing too! So my grandpa is a great guy! I need to hang out with him more often! Plus, he is an AMAZING artist. I will have to upload a picture of them one day.

Also some great things that have happend:
1. I GOT TO SEE CHELSEY'S STONE AT DOWNTOWN DISNEY!!! :) That was amazing to see her name there. I think about her all the time and that was great to have her help me through that! If you don't know.. I'm deathly afraid of characters like the ones at Disney Land so I have never been and never will go. But she helped me face part of my fear to make it and see her. I miss her a lot and think about her every single day. I wrote a letter to her the other day, I'll upload it in a little bit.





2. I GOT TO MEET MY ADORABLE COUSIN JACKSON KENDRICK!! I've seen pictures of him and he is adorable. But when you meet him in person, it is sooo much better! I'm so glad that I got to cuddle with him! I love him already. He is such a sweet boy. I love love love love LOVE baby Jackson! <3 Thank you Uncle Justin and Brooke for letting me see him! Love you all! :)



Sweet Boy! <3

My grandma is a racist!

My grandma, what to say about her…? Well, she is VERY racist. I cannot believe how bad it is! I’m not racist, I just hate jerks. But wow.. Is she ever!! Popeye went over to see some dogs at one of the campsites we were at. And she can’t see very well so I told her that he ran away to go see those dogs. She’s like.. Oh I love those little dogs, I’ll have to go see them later. And I said.. Well, they’re Mexican. I said that jokingly because she has said outrageous things in the past and I just wanted to see if she would say anything. And she did. She came back with, “Oh I didn’t know those people could have a motor home like that.” It was a big motor home so pretty much she was saying, I can’t believe Mexicans can afford a motor home like that. They probably stole it. I was shocked!!! I couldn’t believe that she would say anything like that and not have any problem with it!!! Then I said, Wow grandma, you’re really racist. Mexicans can be rich and famous and have normal jobs and afford motor homes.. And she’s like, well that’s the way I grew up. Only white people were good and black and Mexicans were not allowed to do anything. I just wanted to smack her and say, well the times are different so change your freaking mind old lady! You need to accept them. They are people too! They are just like us. So get over yourself.
Oh and she doesn’t like that I speak my mind and tell her the truth. But whatever. And I was just discussing with her that she always says it loud enough so that people can hear her. And one day, someone will come up and punch her. So I told her she better fix what she says or else I will let someone do that. She's like, well it's my trouble not yours. So I said, "Ok.. well I'll just back away then if anybody is gonna beat you up." She said ok. Also, She was eating her mixed nuts and called one of them "The N word" toes. But she actually said the word. I was like... WAIT! What did you say??!! and she's like, that's how I grew up and I don't have a problem with that!
It just amazes me how ignorant she is. The world is changing. She needs to change her perspective!

The infamous glass.

"People always ask if you are glass half full or glass half empty. But can’t it just be a cup of water?" People always over analyze things. I don’t think I’m glass half full or empty.. So I decided to just add this- It’s just a cup of water!!

I'm gonna copywrite that and everything because I made it up so hopefully no business people will see it and steal it!

Pullman or Bust!

Well we are almost to Pullman. I slept in til about.. noon. Then I packed my stuff for the weekend. Took a shower. Got my eyebrows done. And we left! :) We also took an hour detour in Cle Elum to eat lunch. We stopped at this teriyaki place that I LOVE! We stop there everytime we are in Cle Elum or pass it. We also stopped by Safeway because I had to look for something. When I was there... last summer or the summer before, I was wasting time and wandering around Safeway for like 2 hours. My dad was on a bike ride so I had to entertain myself. Anyway, back to my story.. while I was at Safeway, I found some Rice Pudding Popsicles! They sounded so weird but so delicious!! :) I didn't get them back then because it was hot and I didn't wanna eat 6 popsicles by myself before they melted.. But I went back today to look for them and they didn't have them. :( I was sad because I REALLY wanted to try them! But we will have to check in the mexi town of Royal City on our way home. The whole 3 store city.. but I love to go to that gas station and get raspberry lemonade! :) I also like to stop in Colfax and get Coug Talking Rain water!! Anyway.. back to right now..
We are driving and driving and driving. Plus listening to P!nk! :) But we will be there soon and start Mom's Weekend! This weekend should be fun! Kind of stressed about getting back Sunday and leaving Monday for Cali. But we will see how it all goes.. just gonna enjoy the weekend and visit with all the moms! Yay for WSU Mom's Weekend! :)

**I'll update later and add pictures once I'm at my brother's house! :) **

Happy Birthday Mom!

Today is my mommy's bday!! So I would just like to say: Mom, thanks for being my best friend. Thanks for being the best mom ever. Thanks for being awesome! You are always there for me. Me and you can conquer anything together! This is a new beginning for us! We can do anything so let's start this new life! Even if we do argue sometimes, we always love eachother! No matter what, I love you so much! You know that! Thanks for being my mom! I wouldn't choose anybody else!! :) 

I love you soo much! <3

And now: Psychiatrists...

They have not helped me at all. There's 2 doctors. I'm not naming names so we'll call them D1 and D2.. D1 is the main person who deals with prescriptions. D2 is one of the people below him who I unfortunately have to deal with. I've been seeing them both for about....5 years? D1 I only see about twice a year. D2 makes me see him like every 3 weeks...ugh! He sucks at his job! All he says is.. you need to put more effort into it and you need to be more willing to try new medications and stuff. OMG! I am SO tired of hearing that! I always try all the freakin crap you want me to. Even though I say that I hate it, I still continue it! So he needs to find something else dumb to say. That's such a generic thing to say. You can say that to anybody and some dumb people will be like.. "oh ya. You're right. I'm gonna try that! You're the best doctor ever!" I don't buy into that crap. I realize that my sleep disorder is really rare and you don't know what to do for that.. but have you even done 10 minutes of research on it? I highly doubt it. All you care about is the freakin paycheck. And today with all that crap about "oh ya I totally understand. I can see how hard that is for you". Don't give me that fake sympathy. You just say what you think D1 wants to hear. I don't buy it. So give up the good doctor act! You suck at your job! Find a new one! First of all, you're a psychiatrist! Isn't it your job to listen? You might listen but you don't hear what I'm saying! You just hear what you want to hear and roll with that.. I kept telling you from freakin day one not to focus on waking me up. I wanted 1 anti depressant. That's it. If I wake up at 11 and start my day, I'm fine with that. I just want to have some energy to get off the couch and maybe actually leave the house more than twice a week! And whenever I say a whole bunch of stuff, you focus on one stupid thing. I tried the whole sun coming in the window thing for 2 weeks! It didn't work! That's what I'm telling you so don't tell me to try it! Freakin A! I'm just sick and tired of you pretending to be a good doctor. You suck! I don't wanna be your patient anymore. Even just thinking about talking to you makes me so angry. I just want to punch somebody! So I'm gonna find a new doctor that doesn't make things worse!! And if you see me in the building, don't talk to me. I don't want to talk to you! That's the whole point of leaving your office! So don't say "hi shantel, hope everything is going great for you." Because I might throw a magazine at you. You said yourself that you don't know what to do to help me.. So I'm gonna find someone who actually cares about helping me. And not someone who just sits there and tells me one of three things.
1. You need to put more effort into your activites.
2. You need to be more willing to try new medications.
3. I just don't know what to tell you.
You are a waste of my precious time and money. Most of the time I'm so mad at you that all I do is sit there. I'm glad you're alright with it because you're getting paid to sit there and pretend to care. You are useless! And now after 2 1/2 months of all these stupid pills to wake me up that don't work, you're finally hearing what I'm saying? Well praise the freakin lord. You actually became decent doctors.. 

Screwed Over. Part Two.

This one probably won't be as long but we'll see..
Well my mom has had this best friend since like middle school. So she was always there to celebrate our birthday and stuff with us. Plus- we saw her probably every day. Ya.. she was that involved in our lives. But at the beginning of '08 when I needed people the MOST... she stopped talking to us. She had dropped us just like that. Without warning or anything.. so we have tried to keep in touch with cards, letters, texts, etc.. but maybe 3 replies a year. Well it hit the point of reality when she forgot my bday last year. Not just any birthday but my 18th bday!! And then she called my brother on his. My brothers bday is 9 days after mine. So you would think after celebrating our bdays with us for however long, that would register that you forgot my bday. So as a caption on a picture on myspace (she was my friend on there) I wrote, "You know its funny how some people are like your family, and then they ditch you and forget your bday and then call your brother on his." She read that and commented, "That's pretty harsh. But I deserve it. I'm so sorry. Happy belated." With me you can't just say sorry and have it all fixed! I hold a grudge! But then I saw her about a month ago. Me and my mom went to visit a friend at her salon. This said person was tanning at the time we showed up. As she was leaving, she said Hi to me like you would say to some random freakin person on the street! Even if you don't wanna talk to my mom.. atleast ask me how I'm doing. Even if you don't care, that's the freakin nice thing to do! So I guess we've been replaced. Let's just mention the fact that she was the person that we went to hawaii with. But when all she said was hi to me.. I was done. You don't screw me over and get away with it!  So a few last words to you:
Thanks for introducing me to Kauai. But to just replace us like that, its not cool! Especially when I needed my friends and family most! I would say thanks for all the adventures.. but I don't care. And someone had told me that when you found out you missed my bday, you cried. Boo freakin Hoo! Try being me with no friends and thinking nobody cares and you forget my bday. So screw you! I hope your new freakin life sucks and I hope there's another Tsunami when you go to Hawaii this month! Thanks for pretending you care and taking it away from me. Don't try contacting me AT ALL! I'm done with you. You're not a part of my life anymore!!!.

These might sound harsh.. but you would have to know the entire story to understand.

Screwed over.. Part One.

Well.. I've been screwed over plenty in my life. 3 certain people come to mind. Numero Uno- We don't even speak her name anymore. Just hearing her name makes me want to vomit because she is such a horrible person. Here's the story: she had moved back up here from LV and she invited herself to stay in the extra room in my apartment. I didn't want her there in the first place. But she was my moms friend so whatever.. Anyway, I set up a few ground rules. The most important was- She couldn't have her 6 kids live on my living room floor!! Well, I came home one night at like 11-ish and she was mad that I didn't call her and tell her I was coming home late. She was waiting up to tell me that I should have called her. I told her earlier that day that her 2 girls couldn't spend the night because I might have Carter. She said, "Well can my girls come over and we can all watch movies and bake cookies and stuff." That was a load of crap because she just wanted them to spend the night regardless of what I thought. So as she waited up for me to come home, I guess she had thought that she turned into my mother. She is wrong. She started yelling at me because I didn't come home with Carter and I said that ya... my cousin decided just to keep him home that night. She replied with, "So my girls COULD have spent the night. But you didn't call and tell me? You could have called after your cousin called you and told me. Then they could have come over after that!!" Well first of all, let me mention again that its MY apartment. And second, her daughters are druggy whores. So I didn't want them at my apartment!! Anyway.. a couple nights later, I showed up and DID have Carter. He was probably 2 years old around this time. He was asleep by the time we got back to the apt so I was carrying him in. I also had my cousin Tory with me. When I walked in, 5 of her 6 kids were sprawled across my living room. They were watching a movie and I had asked them if they could sit on the floor because Carter slept on the couch. They said "well I'm sitting here right now.. so put him on the floor." Well let me just add again that I have a 2 year old asleep in my arms and I'm trying to lay him down. I went in and layed Carter on my bed. I asked them why they were all there and they said they were babysitting. One of her kids was like 5 or whatever but still, he didn't need 5 people babysitting him. So pick another lame excuse. Then again I asked them to sit on the floor. They didn't cooperate. So that's when I called my wonderful mom. She gets things done! :) So I called my mom and filled her in on what was going on. Then she wanted to talk to the oldest kid. I handed him the phone and said "here, my mom wants to talk to you." If you would have seen his face, you would enjoy this part as much as I do. :) he looked like right there he had just crapped his pants. It was HILARIOUS!!!! He is afraid of my mom! So he can act all "tough guy" when he's talkin to me but gets a little scared when it comes to my mom! Haha! Anyway.. She told him to straighten up and sit on the floor. And he came back with, "Well we told her that we just wanted to finish the movie which is another 10 minutes then everybody else was gonna leave and I'm just gonna wait with my little brother til my mom comes home." That's total BS!! But he's afraid of my mom. I know how to deal with certain people! :) Anyway.. my mom finally told him to quit being a selfish jerk and let me put Carter on the couch. What a great mom I have! :)
So finally the mom came home. She was drunk. I was sitting in my room talking to my cousin and she was yelling at my door "Shantel.....Shantel.....Shantel come here!" Finally I walked out and said "Yes?" She started yelling at me (YES IN MY OWN FREAKIN HOUSE)!!
The conversation went a little bit like this:

"why do you get to have someone spend the night and my kids don't get to spend the night?"
"Well you have 6 kids and you wanted all of them to freakin live here! This is an apartment! And my cousin is just spending the night tonight to help me with Carter."
"Well that's a stupid rule. Why do you have to be a biatch about it?"
"Excuse me? This is my apartment! Who do you think you are?!"
"Well I pay half the rent here too! So you can't play that card Shantel!" (She was supposed to pay us half the rent but we still haven't seen it and that was back in Oct '08) (I should have replied with: oh ya.. did that get lost in the freakin mail? Haha! I'm so mean!)
"Whatever.. I'm not even gonna fight with you about this!"
Then I walked into my room. Called my mom and told her that this lady is a biatch!  Then she called my name again in her awful voice.. I walked out and said:
"What?!"
"Did you eat 1 of my top ramen?"
"No, maybe it was one of your 5 freakin kids that you had covering my living room!"
"Well they just wanted to visit me. They never get to see me because you never let them over here!"
"Well you weren't even here, you were at the bar. And I never said your stupid kids couldn't come over and visit. I said that they can't live here!!" (They must of caught the stupid from her! Haha!!)
"Well how would you like it if someone told you that you couldn't see your mom? That's what you're doing to me! You're not letting me see my kids!"
"I NEVER SAID THAT YOU COULDN'T SEE YOUR FREAKIN KIDS. YOU CAN GO SEE YOUR KIDS AT THEIR HOUSE OR GO MEET THEM AT A FREAKIN PARK OR SOMETHING!! I never once said that you couldn't see your kids so get over it!"
"Well you're just being so mean to me! What do you want? Do you want me to move out?"
"YES!!!!" Then I walked into my room.
Let's just add a few more details to this story so you get the whole picture.
1.When I was at work one day.. she packed up all of her crap. I came home and there was only 1 box left on the counter. It contained a set of OUR sheets. I was in my room. She grabbed the box off the counter and left. I opened the front door and she was outside. She looked at me and said, "bye!" And I slammed the door! We never saw the money or our key again. So we started locking the other lock! Who knows what else of ours she stole when she was packing up!!
2. A year earlier at my brother's graduation, she had the nerve to say, "I wish that you would have turned out better like my kids." Let's see.. you mean your kids that have babies while on heroin, continue to smoke heroin, do cocaine, get pregnant at 15, sleep around, get drunk and take drugs they don't even know what kind, try to smuggle drugs in their crotch to canada, and call the cops on your husband? Oh ya those kids.. ya they are such winners! I wish I could be just like them! Haha. Are you freakin serious?
3. About 6 months after she yelled at me in my own freakin house.. She talked to my mom and asked her when I was gonna stop hating her. Are you serious? After you called me a biatch in my own house after I let you live there rent free? Well, I've come to this conclusion and wanted to add this to her:
I don't hate you. I would have to care to hate you. I just pity you. You think that your life is great but you should all be in jail or just let your druggy kids overdose already! So get over yourself because you are nothing! You are trash and you use everybody! I hope one day you actually become a descent human being that is actually worthy of being alive. So good luck with your stupid screwed up kids and your awful husband who thinks he's a good singer. Most people just wanna punch him in the face!!. But the bottom line is: Do not contact me. Do not say my name. Don't even think my name! EVER!!! Thinking of you makes me want to vomit!! You know who you are biatch! :)

This turned out longer than I had thought. But I thought that if I get this story out (still not naming names) then maybe people will read it and never talk to her again!! :)

Well, we'll see..

So my mom informed me today that I have childhood bipolar. So I guess everybody isn't bipolar their whole lives. I'm just one of the lucky few.. of course. Anyway.. We are on our way to go have a big meeting with my psychiatrists and see if they are gonna continue my pills and everything. I doubt this is gonna go my way but we will see! My psychiatrists never listen to what I have to say. So why should I listen to them right? But they are probably gonna tell me that I need to stay on all of these pills that don't work. The main thing I'm trying to get across to them is that they need to stop focusing on waking me up! I take the provigil and the ritalin to wake me up but I can still sleep until 2 and I can still take naps during the day. They gave me the ritalin to take at 7 when I take my provigil because apparently its supposed to wake me up.. but my mom said its also supposed to be an anti depressant or whatever. I think she's just makin that up so I'll take it because ritalin is for people ADHD to calm them down if I read that right. But I might just end up walking out of the office yelling at them all. We're on our way up so wish me luck!

Stupid people explaining Bipolar.

So I'm reading this thing on a DVD my dad ordered offline. It's called "Bipolar Supporter Success DVD". "The Ultimate Bipolar Supporter Success Pack". It's a DVD that you read on the computer. It's written by David Oliver. His website is (www.bipolarcentral.com). As I'm reading this, I've noticed that he either didn't phrase some things right or he's just stupid.  At first he says, "My mother has been suffering from bipolar disorder for much of her life." And then in the next paragraph he says, "As I stated earlier, my mother has had bipolar disorder for most of her life."  You can't just all of a sudden get bipolar one day!!. I understand how he explains it the first time how she has "suffered" from it for most of her life.  But really guy? She's had bipolar for "most" of her life? You can be diagnosed after a while and then finally have a name for it. And the extreme-ness of it can get worse as it goes on,  but you can't just be normal until age 12 or whatever and then go to the doctor and then start being bipolar. I know a lot of people that were diagnosed in their teen years or 20s. But they have been bipolar their whole life. The intensity of it can get worse so they just finally have a name for it! So he totally phrased that wrong!.
Another thing he says is, "As I talked to more and more people who had bipolar disorder or who  were supporting someone who did, I learned about other information needed both by survivors of bipolar disorder and their supporters." He talks about surviving bipolar like it's a bear attack and you lived through it. You can't just drink a magic potion and all of a sudden the bipolar is gone. Yes, you can find the right medications and have bipolar somewhat under control, but you can't survive bipolar. Even if you do find the right medication, it could take years and years to find the right 1 or the right 12. I was diagnosed bipolar about age 8 or 10 but my mom has known my whole life and didn't wanna get me misdiagnosed. But I mean, I still don't have the right mix of medications to fix me. So it's been like 10 years and I still don't have the right pills. Yes, I do have a sleep disorder along with that but still... So my point is that this guy needs to watch how he phrases things or he needs to do some more research!.

He adds this paragraph which I think is somewhat true:  *A bipolar supporter once said, "Bipolar is not contagious. But it does affect everyone who surrounds the person, everyone who comes in contact with them." No you can't "catch" bipolar disorder like the common cold, but if you are not careful, the disorder can take over your life and become the center of your attention.*
What is in quotes is what someone else said and everything else, he said. I agree that it can consume your life. You do have to do lots of research and have the support of your family and friends. But it can also become the center of your attention which is good sometimes! Sometimes you just need to focus on your bipolar and figure out what to do and how to help yourself! So I'm only on page 8 of apparently 33. But that's what I have so far. I don't know if I'm mad at him for this because I'm bipolar and know how it is to be me, or if its because I actually know how to write and notice things like that, or if its because I hate people. Maybe all of the above.

Also, I just wanted to add this.. I went over to see my grandpa the other day and he was watching Fox News or something. As I was walking in, I read across the bottom of the TV "So and so was bipolar and was off of her medication at the time of the robbery." She didn't rob the place just because she was bipolar!! Maybe she was manic and had the inspiration to do it. But you know how many robberies go on every single day across the country? Lots. So it was NOT neccessary to mention that she was bipolar. Probably 99.8% of people who rob places aren't bipolar. So I was like wow.. they just had to add that she was bipolar. That's how they want the public to perceive bipolar people. They are putting us out there like we are all Crazy all the time! We are not. So we need to stop the media from portraying us like that! Plus- I'm still mad at Nickelodeon for using the word Bipolar inappropriately!!
I should be a public speaker! I think I'd be good at that! :)

Random.

This was not at the tulip festival but it was at Olive Garden when we stopped for lunch. I thought it was a good picture so here you go..

Also..

On Friday we are going to see my brother for Mother's weekend over in Pullman. I'm excited to go because it should be fun! Then we get back on Sunday and I leave Monday for Cali. So it will be busy. But I'm excited to see my brother again! If you don't know my brother.. this is him! :)

Haha! I love this picture! Love ya bro. :)

The start of April.

Well, on April 2nd.. I had my mom's bday party. It turned out great! We had so much fun with everybody that came! And I love planning parties so that worked out well too! :) Thank you to everybody that came! And thank you to the Kranz family for letting us use your barn! :)

Yesterday, I went down to Mt. Vernon with my mom, her mom, and her step dad. I don't call her my grandma. I call her my mom's mom. Anyway.. We went down to the tulip festival and I took TONS of pictures! Atleast 100. My mom doesn't like to take pictures as much as I do.. But I love to take pictures of myself! So I was taking pictures of myself, and pictures of my mom. And we got some together! We will have to frame those! Family pictures are great! :)

Today is Easter Sunday.. So happy easter! My mom went to church and then went to dinner at her boyfriend's house. I decided to stay home and sleep! One thing about me is that I can't do something EVERY day. So after doing many things within the last couple days, I was ready for a day of nothing! :) I slept in until 2 pm which was AWESOME!! I needed some sleep! So then my mom gave me my Easter basket and we hung out for a little bit. We stopped and shopped yesterday on our way home. My mom got me some cute pink walking shoes. My mom is so wonderful! But it's weird because I'm branching out from converse, but they're Cute!! And I got my mom some clothes at Old Navy. That was our Easter present to eachother because we like to get stuff for eachother besides candy.. But it turned out well! :)

Happy Easter everybody!! :)