And now: Psychiatrists...

They have not helped me at all. There's 2 doctors. I'm not naming names so we'll call them D1 and D2.. D1 is the main person who deals with prescriptions. D2 is one of the people below him who I unfortunately have to deal with. I've been seeing them both for about....5 years? D1 I only see about twice a year. D2 makes me see him like every 3 weeks...ugh! He sucks at his job! All he says is.. you need to put more effort into it and you need to be more willing to try new medications and stuff. OMG! I am SO tired of hearing that! I always try all the freakin crap you want me to. Even though I say that I hate it, I still continue it! So he needs to find something else dumb to say. That's such a generic thing to say. You can say that to anybody and some dumb people will be like.. "oh ya. You're right. I'm gonna try that! You're the best doctor ever!" I don't buy into that crap. I realize that my sleep disorder is really rare and you don't know what to do for that.. but have you even done 10 minutes of research on it? I highly doubt it. All you care about is the freakin paycheck. And today with all that crap about "oh ya I totally understand. I can see how hard that is for you". Don't give me that fake sympathy. You just say what you think D1 wants to hear. I don't buy it. So give up the good doctor act! You suck at your job! Find a new one! First of all, you're a psychiatrist! Isn't it your job to listen? You might listen but you don't hear what I'm saying! You just hear what you want to hear and roll with that.. I kept telling you from freakin day one not to focus on waking me up. I wanted 1 anti depressant. That's it. If I wake up at 11 and start my day, I'm fine with that. I just want to have some energy to get off the couch and maybe actually leave the house more than twice a week! And whenever I say a whole bunch of stuff, you focus on one stupid thing. I tried the whole sun coming in the window thing for 2 weeks! It didn't work! That's what I'm telling you so don't tell me to try it! Freakin A! I'm just sick and tired of you pretending to be a good doctor. You suck! I don't wanna be your patient anymore. Even just thinking about talking to you makes me so angry. I just want to punch somebody! So I'm gonna find a new doctor that doesn't make things worse!! And if you see me in the building, don't talk to me. I don't want to talk to you! That's the whole point of leaving your office! So don't say "hi shantel, hope everything is going great for you." Because I might throw a magazine at you. You said yourself that you don't know what to do to help me.. So I'm gonna find someone who actually cares about helping me. And not someone who just sits there and tells me one of three things.
1. You need to put more effort into your activites.
2. You need to be more willing to try new medications.
3. I just don't know what to tell you.
You are a waste of my precious time and money. Most of the time I'm so mad at you that all I do is sit there. I'm glad you're alright with it because you're getting paid to sit there and pretend to care. You are useless! And now after 2 1/2 months of all these stupid pills to wake me up that don't work, you're finally hearing what I'm saying? Well praise the freakin lord. You actually became decent doctors..