New Apartment!

I am officially on my own. Monday (April 18th?) was my first night alone but my dad spent the weekend with me here. We’ve been moving stuff in for a while so it’s slowly coming together. The living room and the bedroom are tiny. But the walkway, bathroom, kitchen, and back porch are pretty big! So that doesn’t make any sense to why the 2 important rooms are the tiniest.. But I’m starting to get used to it. We still don’t have all the furniture in yet but hopefully we will do that this weekend. But you can’t put a satellite dish on the building so I won’t be able to get directv. That’s what my dad has so it would be only like $5 a month to have that here but no… they couldn’t do that. And if I were to get Comcast it would be $30 a month. I can’t afford that. But I don’t have internet either but my mom said that we can go to clear wire and get that set up. So that will be good, I’ll at least have something to entertain me for all the time that I have. I literally have nothing going on with my life. Yes, I babysit sometimes. But I need to find a real job. My dad said that he would pay my rent for me if I would pay the electric bill. Did you know that if you sign up for the first time they charge you $90?? That is crazy! I can barely afford the bill but now I have to pay $90 too? That’s stupid! But I need to get a real job because babysitting was pretty much paying for gas and a couple random things if I needed something at the store. But now I need to pay for gas and my electric bill and everything else. Life is so annoying sometimes. And as a 19 year old, I should have everything covered and have my life on some kind of track. But because I slept for 5 years, I still feel like I’m 16. Sometimes I have to stop and remind myself that I’m 19. But I’ve started the whole having my own life thing now… I don’t know how well it will go but I guess we’ll find out. Do you notice how everything I write starts out ok and then ends depressing. Ya that’s how it happens in real life too.