So tonight is not a good night. It's one of "those" nights that I really really hate my stupid sleep disorder and I hate everything that screwed my life up.
In elementary school and middle school, I had lots of friends. I would talk to them at school all the time and talk online. But then I stopped going to school and I stopped leaving my house. I was in my own little world here and I am still afraid to leave it. The thing is that everybody I used to know, moved on with their lives. They kept going to school. They kept meeting new people and they all have their own group of friends. I don't blame people for not waiting around. I just HATE how this all turned out.
So anyway, today I went to pick up my mom from work because I have her car because mine is broken and sucky. But she told me that one of my favorite old friends was at Haggen. So I was excited to go say hi. But when I got there, that person was in the parking lot where my mom was standing. And I got out of the car and couldn't do it. That said person was standing with some of their friends and talking to someone in the car a few spaces down. I REALLY wanted to go say hi but I couldn't. My mom's like.. "they're right over there. go say hi.". But I thought to myself, "Well they wouldn't really care either way. They don't remember me. They won't wanna say hi to me." So I just got back in the car and left. I was so mad at myself for not going to say hi. But I just couldn't make myself do it. People moved on.. They don't care about me anymore...
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