Hello Again..

Well, there is one new thing in my life the last 2 days. And that is.... DUCT TAPE!! :) I have recently learned how to make duct tape wallets and duct tape roses. They are not just the plain ol' gray. They are colorful! I went and got neon orange, neon green, neon pink, teal, yellow, crimson, and red! I have made 2 wallets so far and they have turned out great! I made 1 for my dad and 1 for my mom.



I have also made about 6-7 roses for my mom for her bday.. Shhh!! I'll give them to her on Friday before her bday party and I'm sure she will love them! :)



I really love to write books and scrapbook. I would love to do that ALL the time but I don't have energy ALL the time. I really have like 10% energy everyday. And it sucks... a lot. But I love making things out of duct tape because I can just sit there and do that. It doesn't require a lot of work.. which is what works for me! :) So I really like doing it! It keeps my hands busy but doesn't require a ton of energy.
Also- Me and my mom have to meet with my 2 psychiatrists on Monday to talk about what medications are working, and what aren't. Here's a hint: NONE ARE WORKING!! But they don't really care. So maybe I will get through to them this time. Or I might have to write another letter explaining why he is wrong and he needs to be a better doctor. I just was expressing my opinion and he said that he had never had a hate note before. Trust me.. that's not a hate note. Because I am excellent at writing those! :) But he is just making up all kinds of crap to try and explain what's going on with me. He says I might have some kind of Fatigue disorder or something. He's like oh.. she's tired all the time and has no energy, maybe she has this.. But you would have thought that he would have figured that out....oh maybe 5 years ago!!!!

Anyway.. We'll see how that goes. But I do have a new love for colorful Duct Tape which is AWESOME!!

And also, I should just add.. I kind of love this guy. I have for a while. He is SUPER nice and he was always awesome! He might not have understood what I was going through, but he always helped me through it. He made me laugh when I just wanted to punch people in the face! And he talked to me even I was sleeping a lot in middle school. He is just an awesome guy. But I haven't talked to him in a while. It's kind of hard to say.. Hey. Umm.. wanna hang out? By the way.. I kind of love you.. But I've been thinking about him a lot lately. And I really don't know how to ask him to even hang out. I kind of feel like everybody I used to know, hates me and I don't know how to approach anyone anymore, let alone him. But I just wanted to add that. He makes me smile just thinking about him! :)
And by the way.. its not Brent. He left me to go to Spain. Haha. I've never even talked to Brent because I get choked up every time I see him so I can't even talk. But I love him too because he is so hot!! and he's so nice and has a great family. He's perfect. :)
Anyway... It's not Brent. But I can't say who it is. One hint: I've known him since... 6th grade? that might give it away if he reads this.. Oh well. I dont' really care anymore. What's to lose right? I just can't say it to his face.. haha. I doubt that he reads this, and I doubt that anybody actually reads this besides my dad and my new awesome friend Elizabeth.
So Thanks Dad!! And Thanks Elizabeth!! :)

Elizabeth is my cool new friend who actually understands what I'm going through! I'm so happy to have her as a friend because she rocks!!

And also, I just wanted to thank the people I babysit for. You always talk to me and ask me how things are going when I see you. And you probably just think that you're talking to another person. But you don't know how much it means to me for someone to actually be nice to me!!! It makes me so happy because you guys are always so nice and such wonderful people! I really love your kids, they are awesome! And you guys are awesome too! I really don't know how to explain it to people, so I thought I would just express it here. I really appreciate you guys sooo much!!!! You guys are like my friends and you gave me hope for people! I had given up on people because they suck and they are jerks but you guys have given me a glimmer of hope. You are so kind and I really appreciate you guys! You brighten my day!! So thank you Jodi, Julia, and Denise!!! :)


So... that's the end for today. And tomorrow ends the month. I might not update as much because April is soooo busy for me. But I will try to update a lot! And when I'm in california (april 12-21)... I might post some weird blogs where I'll say that I hate my grandparents, the heat, my dad, and my dog.. etc. But just ignore those ones! haha. :)